Thursday, October 05, 2006

I don't know about Lynn..

we are having some marital problems once again that I won't go into detail here. But I am very depressed at the way things are going and it kills me. If it wasn't for Amber I would probably be having a mental breakdown. I try to stay strong for her and for myself. I just feel like he doesn't love me anymore that I am not who or what he wants anymore. When he gets off work he goes to see his friends and doesn't have much time for *us* anymore. We never do any family things together anymore. In fact Amber asked me the other day why isn't Daddy home more often? I just tell her he is working alot. Which he is but then soon after he will spend time with his friends instead of coming home. Do we really deserve this? My mind is wandering aimlessly today and the tears are puddles in my eyes. Good thing I only work until 12:30 today or I would be a mess. So please everyone say a prayer. Say a prayer for me and Amber. Love to you all.


foodiechickie said...

Oh I am sorry to hear that Amanda. I thought with all the happy posts and nice activities things were going well. If you need to talk I am here. Hugs!

Lisanne said...

Amanda, I am *so* sorry. I have no idea what to say. I wish that I could help make you feel better! Please e-mail me if you EVER want to talk.